Super-Relieved

I'm relieved for two main reasons today:

1. The show is over - not that it was stressful in the least, but it's a huge weight lifted off my shoulders. There's so much that goes into it mentally that it kind of ties up my brain and I can't concentrate on much else till it's over. I walked in my house last night and for the first time in about a week I realized that the place is a pig sty! So my concentration this week (when I'm home - yeah I'm on to something else already...) will be to clean clean clean!

2. I stopped HCG. I know some people may immediately assume that I just can't swing it or that I'm a quitter. It's actually quite the opposite. I WANT to keep going, but my body can't handle it. I had gotten to the point of only eating about 200 calories a day as opposed to the 500 calories you're supposed to take in. My gag reflex was so bad that as soon as food would touch my lips, I would start gagging and immediately go throw the food away. I was able to hold down about half a meal per day. Unhealthy. TOTALLY unhealthy. The other issue I had was the emotional/mental effect it was having on me. It was tearing me apart. I wanted to cry all the time - and on Saturday, that's all I did. I started having really crazy thoughts that I've never had before. It scared me so bad that I knew I had to stop. So Mr. Incredible will be doing South Beach with me starting today. I'm really excited about it because I know it'll work - I just have to be committed.

So I'll keep updating on my progress. I'm 10 lbs. lighter than I was last Monday (due to the starvation I'm sure) and when I came off the HCG I didn't gain back what I had lost. That's a positive in my book!

Until next time =====================================> Ashley